It has been so long. It has been too long. There should be nothing there, but there it is: that lingering thought that never was. There are many reasons I should not be thinking of him. But when I feel loneliest, when I wonder if there would be anyone who could understand, who would make this loneliness go away - I wonder if I've forgone that somebody who could've, who would've...
But am I only fooling myself? Is it a false memory? I have never been able to admit the truth to anyone. To be completely honest with anyone. I have a barrier between myself and everyone else. It gets really lonely and makes it impossible to truly connect with another person. I'm the reason for my own loneliness.
Should I really overthink it? Can't I just enjoy life? I'm regretting my life choices... the worst of things. I'm sorry to myself for my thoughts.
But am I only fooling myself? Is it a false memory? I have never been able to admit the truth to anyone. To be completely honest with anyone. I have a barrier between myself and everyone else. It gets really lonely and makes it impossible to truly connect with another person. I'm the reason for my own loneliness.
Should I really overthink it? Can't I just enjoy life? I'm regretting my life choices... the worst of things. I'm sorry to myself for my thoughts.
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